I know I have let ya’ll down. My bad. Somehow sleeping is just more important… 
if it makes it any better I write a post in my head everyday of what I would be saying! No, that really doesn’t make it better….
It’s amazing what you let go once you have a baby. I can’t find my phone. And for the people who have called me, that is obvious, I haven’t used it in forever. I just don’t care. I am so tired. I am actually sleeping A LOT during the day, but it seems like I just can’t catch up.
Let me try to go back over the days as best as I can.
Wednesday we had Macy at 9:06. The first group of people to come in was our parents and sisters. We got some great pictures of their reactions. Next, we had all of the rest of our friends and family back and told them it was a girl. Here is the video link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w2jNlSbq83g
Everyone left except my mom, dad, sarah, chelsie and my aunt julie. We hung out for a bit, and had to wait a while to move to our room. I think it was about 1-2 AM before we got in our room. I didn’t sleep that WHOLE night. I just sat there an stared at her and attempted to breastfeed. She was NOT having it. That girl was so strong, I was literally pinning her down. Not fun at all…. But she was really good that first night, I just held her and sang to her and let her daddy sleep…. (poor daddy on the rolly couch :/ )
The next morning, Sarah came up and brought us Chick Fil A. The nurses had contradicting ideas on when my IV could come out. The night nurse told me I did so good going by myself to the bathroom the first time, I would be fine to go the next two times on my own and to let them know when I went the 3rd time. The morning nurse said I still had to do two "voids" so there i was, chugging water so I could get that dang IV out. Out it came, but my hand is still brusied from the several attempts they made. Showering was awkward, I was a little disoriented so I sat down on the bench the whole time… (talk about strange!) Sarah went to school and my mom and Mrs. Linda came by. Gina came by also, and so did Ashley, between her finals CJ and Lance came by around noon but I was OUT. I think Glen and Mary came by next, and then my Aunt Laurie, Kailie, Sarah and my mom came by. Rick and Steph came by in the evening. That night Greg let me sleep and he stayed up with Macy. At this point, I started using my "star wars" contraption as Greg called it. It is really an SNS (supplemental nutrition system- google it!) Breastfeeding was SO PAINFUL. I will spare you the nasty details. But it was nasty. Macy did not like latching on at all… plus, the way she sucks is SO WEIRD.
Friday morning, I was ready to GET HOME. They had to do a hearing test (she passed) and they had to do the discharge instructions. They seriously must deal with some dumb people, but I understand why they have to be so through. My mom helped us get packed up, and off we were, me in the backseat and Greg driving…. driving very carefully I might add.
We got home and I went straight to bed. Greg’s mom had cleaned up the house a bit and got us some groceries. I slept until my parents got there with Carrabbas….. yummmmmm. Dad went back home, but Mom stayed. She got to witness first hand the nightmare it was to breastfeed Macy. We just were not jiving. The rest of the night, I gave up and started pumping and giving it to her in a bottle.
Saturday… we got up, Greg went to breaskfast with his family and they came over (including Granny and Gene) to see the house and meet Macy. Granny was sick so she couldn’t hold her, but Glen and Lisha got to hold her for the first time!
That afternoon I took a nap, was still pumping (ACCCKKKKK) and Matt and Lily came over with Trip. He is 2 months old, and SO BIG compared to Macy! Sarah came over and we all went to Lance and Desiree’s to watch the SEC championship game. Yes, we took our 4 day old to a party. She was fantastic! Sarah spent the night with us and ohmygosh. It is like Heaven when she is here. She is so great with Macy and she is a night person anyway…. I was still getting up every few hours to pump, but it was so much easier to get up and be able to laugh with someone. I guess I should talk about the pain. The only things that hurt were my hand from the IV (only when I pressed it/knocked it on something) my youknowwhats from pumping, and my stiches when I sat a certain way. Annoying things include having to fill up the squirt bottle with warm water everytime I had to pee, remembering to take my ibuprofen, remembering to eat and to drink lots of water, and the LEAKING…. I was sleeping with tons of towels…. lots of fun….And I will be honest again…. I was crying. A lot. I know it was worrying Greg, because that is not like me. But pregnancy hormones are no joke,and the pressure- and pin- from breastfeeding was a huge weight on me. Add on to that, I don’t recognize this strange body in the mirror, and I can’t catch up on sleep. He was so amazing though. We were talking the other day about how I can’t imagine doing this with any other person I dated. I just couldn’t have had children with anyone else. He is so wonderful at taking care of me, and Macy, and the dogs. Just everything.
Sunday we just lazed around until the afternoon and my Uncle Walter, Aunt Bev and Annie came by. Greg went to a Christmas party and boy, did I miss him. I was texting him… please come home soon. I was so emotional that he was GONE. I missed him so much, and I felt like I needed him desperately, even though Sarah was there.
Monday morning, we had to get up EARLY, Greg had a 7 AM meeting. Somehow, we were only about 5 minutes late. We are really good about getting out of the house on time!
This entire week I have been going to my parents, sleeping, and taking care of Macy when I am awake. When I am asleep, either Mom, Julie, or Greg is taking care of her. Two days Gina has come by to love on her for a few hours.
Tuesday I made the decision to go completely to bottlefeeding. I would love to have an in depth conversation about it in person, but there are to many details to try to write it all out. It just wasn’t for Macy, or for me. However, now I am dealing with engorgement (if you are a guy, DO NOT google that) I am running a slight fever and I have some pretty bad headaches. I have also slept a lot today. Ibuprofen doesn’t help much, but for some reason cabbage leaves do. I feel like Eve.
It is almost 9 PM and I am wiped out. I still don’t feel "caught up" on sleep. I probably never will…. Sarah is here tonight, so we get to sleep…. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh she is such an angel.
I leave you with a picture of Macy.
If you have any questions about anything, leave them as comments!
Greg and I bought my mom the John Adams DVD series for her birthday, so we are about to sit down and watch it. Well, I will sit down, but I will probably not watch it. I am ready to go to sleep!
